it’s cruel how things turned
how I wish you will be forever
but now I feel like you’re a stranger
you never answer and call me anymore
it’s been two days, it’s been like hell to me
how I wish you were here when my life is falling apart
how I wish you’re still mine so I could run to you to cry
how I wish I could vent to you about everything in life that bogging me lately
because life has been so fucking heavy
I’m more depressed that there’s no you anymore to comfort me
that time when I asked you to stay
it teared me apart when you said you’re stick to your decision
I guess love is never enough when comes to this thing
I tried to understand but I have to admit that it’s never easy for me
and maybe it’s not easy for you too
but it’s still nice to had you as a lover
I loved our late night conversations
and how you teached me your hometown language
and how you tried to make me laugh when I’m mad
and how you sang me that “kenangan manis” song
but I hate how that song will always reminds me of you
and when I was mad on our first date because of the miss communication
you never know it but actually I didn’t mad anymore when you bring me to that place
a familiar place with the sight of skyscraper, the river, and the sunset
the sky calmed my anger down and I started to wonder why it took you so long to buy us snacks and drinks
I sat alone and wait for you while the sky was getting darker
and that feeling finally hits me, the feeling of being loved
I was so happy when you sparked conversation first
I already forgive you when you talked about your hometown
and when the rain was pouring down while we were about to leave
I loved it when you gave me your jacket and take me home
never thought that would be our first and last date
there are still many things I want to write
but to make it simple, I hope you know that I still love you
I know you still love me too
we both know why we can’t be a lover anymore
but please, don’t be a stranger
